We all agree that those who make their own philosophies and stand by them all their life, are true "Men". But slowly and gradually, I have realised that though I make my own philosophies about life, I change them often. What appears good today, may appear wrong to me the day-after-tomorrow. I have never hold on to one distinct philosophy all throughout my life. So, am I a coward? Do I never deserve to be called "Able"?
Earlier, I used to say that we should never turn towards violence, should hit somebody even if he has hit us, but now-a-days I think its too hard to stand like a eunuch and do nothing if somebody attacks or say something bad about your family or your love. Is it possible? You got to teach them a lesson...isn't it? Just some weeks ago, I feared to fall into a relationship fearing that some bad 'lusty-expectations' may arise in me, but now, after some days during which my life has turned a little upside down, I am finding it hard not to make her my girl !! I am wishing to kiss her right now and hold her tightly to my body for the rest of my life !! Are these bad expectations? Am I becoming lusty here? I can say, for the time being, I can't ask her to be my girl, as she will laugh at me reminding my earlier decisions...And then....who can say anything about girls and their mentality !! They may speak something while mean exactly opposite !!! Na-re-baba...I can't take that risk !!
So, what should I do? Why do I keep changing my mentality? Why am I so bad in maintaining relationships? Can I ever make a girl happy? These questions are giving me many sleepless nights. But I do know one thing...God surely has some great plans for me !!
